This was a long and tierin week, i stayed after skool like 3days, to get extra help with my teacher's.I ended up messing my back again,playing basketball.
what a weekend!!!!!!!!!!it started off so good,went bowlin with some friends wednesday n thursday, get home wednesday night my dad take's my huka pipe away, than on friday i ask my ex-girlfriend out just to c if we were really done,cause somehting inside of me was telling me that it wasnt,we'll whatever that somehting was it was wrong,she aparently is going out with some1,n never told me about it,so yeah great freakin feelin huh,god i hope this next weeks better.
-Nadir

I've been to hell in back in the last 2 1/2days.My ex girlfriend has a new boyfriend, b ut is suppose to be in love with me still, i always thought we could get back together once we workd things out,especial since how we were always talkin about gettting back together, we just have to give each other some time and work out some things. but doesnt look like it anymore, im hurt, im ready to move on, easyer said than done i know, but im really starting to think its time. I went upto a outlet mall today. saw a friend of my ex's,she's been wanting to see me for awhile now, i havnent seen her in a year since that one day we meet in saudi, and now i know why, it was hell.....for those of u who read my last journal i talkd about how i was hit by a car, and well her and her friends once i told them that today, when they saw the scar on my right hand, after that all they did was wanna talk about people getting hit by a car, im just like yeah ok people change the freakin subject already.then they were talkin about how they watchd a movie about a lady giving birth to a baby,and they gave me way more details than i needed ,really way to much. lady's i dont know how u do it but god bless u for doing it, thats all im gonnna say.I wannaa speed the rest of my weekend in a hole, this way i dont have to deal with more shit like i have the last 2days.

Nadir Ali aka Macdaddy4life aka Lovinb4thuggin

Date:	2004-05-17 23:19
Subject:	the past 6weeks
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy
Music:	crazy- kc and jojo

what a shity 6weeks i've had, it all startd one night when i was over at my lil brother(friend actually)'s house, we desiged to walk over to a local starbucks type of shop and ask if we could brin are huka pipe there because we didnt wanna get cought smokeing it at his house.and so we went out to go see if we could bring it, and when we were out in the street, i was on the phone with my girlfriend at the time.(we lastd about 3weeks)and i was hanging up the phone wit her to cross the road, i startd walkin across the street when the ligth was red but this yamenie/saudi guy was trying to make the light and end up hitting me, i was told that i flew up in the air and fell back about 3meters.i had stoped breath, was knockd out for some time apperantly, this is all going on i dont remember any of it, i've lost a good amount of memory when i was hit by that girl, i can remember names and all but i dont remember things like dates and ect. so i was in the hospital for 10days. when i get out of the hospital i realize that i am really still very much in love with my ex-girlfriend jodi ,and have been for some time just havent been onest with myself because of how things ended with us and i thought she didnt feel the same way. But it turnd out she did, so we start talking(oh yeah i broke up with my girlfriend after i was out of the hospital things werent working) so we start talkin again, and really we still love each other and care about each other very much ,so yeah, but we didnt wanna rush into anything. Ill get back to that later, a week goes by and then a bombing happens again in saudi, and the goverenment makes us leav(oh yeah for got to mention my parents work at the us embassy there) so yeah i have to leav in 2weeks. but it kills cause im not suppose to leav for another 3 months. i knew i was movin from there this year but i didnt know i was gonna end up leavin that early. saudi's a good place to live once u get use to it and u know the right people. and so here i am getting ready to leav, this mess's up everything ,my friendship wit alot of people, my chance of possible being happy again by being with the only girl that really makes me happy. so i figured out that id rather be in alongdistance relationship with her no matter how far away i was.so i ask her out, i waitd awhile for her to answer me, i told her to take the time to think it throug, and so i could think it through ,realizing what im askin to get myslef into. i know it wont be easy thing, its gonna hurt alot for the both of us, we did alot of talking about it, and so the night i leav to come back to the states, my last conversation i had with her she told me she would be my girlriend, tats the last thing she said to me and plus i love u,and we hung up, i turnd my cell off and got on the plane to come back to great USA....So here i am back in the states, great to be back as always, but i just miss my friends and my girlfriend ofcourse, so yeah, here's where things really go down hill . things with mygirlfriend are getting really tough, we miss each other so much and we hate we cant pick up the phone to call each other the way we use to because it coast alot of money, one thing leads to another, then she brings up maybe breakin up, i didnt wanna do it or anything, but i didnt think it was also fair for her to hurt so much because of me i know im not some1 special enough to have a great girl like her in so much pain because of me.and the way she was talkin it didnt seem like she wnted to stay together, i knew she loved me and all but she couldnt do the realatioship part anymore so i ended it ,not for me,but so that she wouldnt hurt anymore, but that ended up hurtin her more, she didnt wana break up or anyting(damn girls u need to be more clear)..so here i am screwd up possibly the best thing thats ever happened to me, and what have i got for it, nothing, once i find that out i askd her out again ,but hurtin her so much, made her think for some reason that maybe im not as committed to her as she once thought, cause one things went so bad im quick to end it, thats true, but it wasnt what i wanted to do, not at all, i just thoght i was the easiest ting, when u love some1 the way i do her sometimes u have to the hardest thing but u know it might be the right thing.it doesnt feel right and u know its not but u thats ur only move. so here i am single for about 2weeks now, i miss my girl so much , i wish i didnt f**k up, i really do, we still talk and were some what of close but i know things will never be the same, i've noticed cause things have changed, we aren't the same anymore. so i really f**kd this one up, great job Nadir!!!! what the hell, i cant belive i did that.Now im just workin on my school freakin work, trying to get this year over with, im doin home school with my school back in saudi. i had to get a math and english tutor, the english tutor is great, the math i wont waste my time on him, my parents got rid of him today, praise the lord, so yeah.... but ive been so busy with this school work, i didnt even have a weekend off.the last 11days ive been working.the hours ive put into math,english here its like 2 maybe 3weeks of school days back in saudi, sitting in the class, and i did it in like a lil over a week, i need a break, to much shits gong on, i need to get away. Some body any body help me. Well thats been my past 6weeks, love to hear how every one else's last couple weeks have been going, they're probly a hole lot better than mine, thanks for readin this

-Nadir ali aka (macdaddy4life)
oh yeah any suggestions on how to get jodi back feel free, im stuck on what to do.

Hello real world
fuck saudi arabia, screw it, screw every1 else, For those of you who dont live in saudi, or have never been to it, ur the freakin luckiest people on earth,for those of you who are out of your damn minds ,and would like to come here,give me a call ,ill be more than freakin glad to switch spots with u,unless u live in isreal, its just like here, gay, gay people,God bless u lucky people,enjoy your life
lovinb4thuggin aka(Macdaddy4life)
p.s.Hey every1 in Virginia, how u guys doing, dale hows the knee????

-hello
finaly last day of work,i've compeletd my 3weeks of working in the embassy,Now all i have to do is get paid,wish i wont until next week,freakin hell....I have to start school on saturday though,that really sucks,i cant stand my school,i cant stand the people in my school, i cant stand this country to be onest..Speaking of being onest, i dont get why girls cant be onest with a guy, i mean if ur confused about going out with some1.or ur feelings towards some1,just say something,instead of leading the guy on makeing him think u really like him and then end up breakin his heart12hours after he just askd u out to begin with...
=)Nadir Ali aka(Macdaddy4life)aka(Lovinb4thuggin)

Dear World,
hey any1 who reads this,just wanted to say hi i guess, i duno, i dont know about anything anymore,i'm just so lost and out of this world right now.freakin schools about to start.Who here like serously like school??like working,like going to math class and stuff,serously,i doubt no1.and if u do,well i'd get some freak help,u know what i've realizd most of the bullshit the teach u in school no1 every use it when there older,especially science,thats the most un-usefull class in world,serously who use's it,unless ur a scienctest or a doctor.The president doesnt use it,And he has to be one of the smartiest people in the country.Well not are current president,mr.Bush.he's like dump as a door noob in my opion.but serously,science is just a big freakin waste of time.well i gotta run,take care of urself pepps
Later-:Nadir Ali aka (lovinb4thuggin)aka (Macdaddy4life)

Date:	2003-08-25 08:34
Subject:	Blah
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	Shake your tail faither

Dear pepps
hello everybody!!!!Have you ever just felt like blah,like nothing seemed to matter today or for the next couple of days.Like you just feel like a big waste of space.Shit i feel like blah,and i dont think its from my breakfast this morning,but all of a sudden,i'm just like whatever,just want to go home and sleep,maybe watch a movie or 2.dont feel like doin anything,talking to any1 either really.I can tell my day is going to be slow with not much work for me to day,easiest money i've probly made in a week.lol,Well ladie's and gent's i think its time for me to go and try and find some work take it eazy
-Nadir Ali aka (Macdaddy4life)
p.s.Dale pls email me when you get a chance, i want to know whats going on with you,we didnt get a chance to talk much the other day,take it eazy

Good day pepps,I am back in saudi now,just about 2weeks ive been back,and im workin,in the United states embassy.Its pretty cool not bad pay,the people i work for and with are tight,layed back not so stuck up type of people, i get to go to lunch whenever i want,use the internet whenever i want,I'm basically a run around person,take things to pepps office's and make photo copy's and shit like that,hey it pays alright,long hours but hell what else do i have to do in this gay ass country all day,sit home and do the same old ass bullshit everday,so hows evey1 doing??Summer's almost over in like 2weeks i think,or atleas this side of the world it is,what a summer.i had like 3 1/2 months off,I enjoyd everyday of it most of the time,some days were shity but yea.Gotta run boss is callin me,
sincerly Nadir ali aka(Macdady4life)
P.S.dale dale where are u dale, u havent been online for a few days,where's dale

Evening world, well evening on the eastcoast mornig on the westocast.I am not sure why im writting nothing's different with me.Or atleast nothng that i feel like telling millions of people who i have no clue who the hell u are.I have been in the states for 2months now,It's been great,well most of the time.i've got to see my family,friends,and a bunch of jack ass's that i really wished i didnt see but what u gonna do right.I've seen just about all the new movies that have been out sine ive been here,I've only not seen Findin nemo(Wish i will tommorow most likely) Sinbad,spy kids 3.Go see Tomba Raider poeple,that was such a good movie,along with Bad boys and 2fast 2furious.Best movie that came out this summer would have to be 2fast 2furious.But hey thats my opion.

Tommorow im suppose to meet up with an ex-grilfriend.Great right.well she's bringin along a friend.And when a girl tags along that u have no clue who it is,the days is usual gay,The girl gets noisy and ur ex's is completely different.Even thogh she already is,I have a feeling she'll be even worse.How am i gona live.I should get drunk or somethinging b4 i go.If i did that i wouldnt be able to ride the metro.So i cant do that.If i can make it out of there alive with-out being asked to stupid gay pointless personal Question by the unknow girl.i'll be so happy.I'll do a flip or something,ok maybe not a flip,but u guys u know the feeling.u knw how women are,I tell ya women are nothing but DEVILS.big as DEVILS.Here to make us as men's life's hell.But its true what they say Cant live with em or without em.I mean what else can we do be gay.Hell no.Gays will burn in hell.Its freakin wrong and pointless.I mean God didnt make Adam and John or Eve and Cindy.He made Adam and Eve,Meaning men and women are suppose to be together.Its just crazy to be gay.I mean if ur a man and a beautiful women with lets say big titts walks by.(Ladie's im not trying to be sexiest or anything,please forgive me)and u just keep walkin on and think that guy in the blue shirt with a blue stockin cap is cute.U'r serusly fucked in the head,i mean fucked.Now they're trying to make gay merriage legal.They're trying to take over this world i swear.Makeing Laws.They have there owen shows.Whats next one of them wil become a president,U image how gay America would be.The white house wont be white.it wil become all the colors of the rainbow.

Ok enough about gays,Picked on them enough for one day.Well im gonna go some where.Hope i dont see a gay person,they really freak me
Nadir Ali aka (Macdaddy4life)

Date:	2003-07-20 23:23
Subject:	Why do we put ourselfs in positions to get hurt
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	They dont know-Jon B

I often wonder why we do the thing's we do.Why we jump off of plans.Live over sea's,go to war,it doesnt matter,why do we do the things we do.Do we hope that at the end of the day things turn out fine,good,better than yesturday,Why do we do what we do,Why do we say what we say....I am asking this question hopeing some1 in this world will be able to answer my question.And not some random bs they make up just because they feel like being a Smart ass.Because im serously lost.
-Nadir

For those of u who know and care i've been in indiana for the past 10days,I'll be returning to va tommorrow evening around 630pm.I've had a great trip to indiana went and saw family that i couldnt wait to see all year long and some i couldnt wait to get it over with (My mom's sister and husband),Trust me if u went to there house u'd feel the same way,all u do is go in the house my aint talks about her grandkids,my 2nd cousin for u dumbass's that are wondering whats there relation to me,she talks about them for a hour then we go out into the barn and watch the cows take shit and piss on each other and sit on it,and some times eat it.dont belive thats ur problem,Then back in and my aint would talk about my 2nd cousins more,It gets boring,I mean i love my aint and all but serously She needs to have more subjects to talk about.

I've meet 2 of my cousins boyfriends,They are really cool.One's a rich bitch but we wont get into that.So i've just been basically liveing at there house the hole time,well i spent 2nights at grandma's,but i get sick when im there so i try and stay awaY.2nights i spent the night at my aint jean's in here basement wish is cool because she has a Big screen tv down there.Its kinda scary because the hole room is like red,Everything's red and has IU on it,thats a school Indiana University,my uncle Nelson loves there bball team.So the basemnets his special room in the house,So ur cover in red the hole time ur down there,it looks like a BLOOD lives down there.So yeah its pretty freaky but cool

I am once again at my cousins house hanging out on my last day of my vaction here.I forgot to mention i learnd how to drive manual.for those who care,wish is come to think about it not one person out of the billions on this earth so screw u.!!!!!!

So Va Macdaddy4life aka -lovinb4thuggin aka Nadir Ali, will be back tommorrow evan
-D Take care of that knee mans,I'm thinking about u,how come u never pick ur house phone

Hey every1,how u all doin, im aigght just chilln, things are so messed up around here all these people are fighting over the stupidest things.It's really annoying because u have to listen to them bitch about nothing.U just want to tell them grow the F**k up.But thats wrong so i just listen
I've meet this new british gurl thats really good looking.And the best part is she like's me.lol.I know Im sad just bare wth me people.lol...She's really good looking,She's really nice too, i dont know much about her because the gurls are screwing me over everytime she wants to talk to me the gurls tell her not too,i hate gurl, i really due,Hopefully ill get to talk to her tonight, a bunch of pepps are comeing to my house to chill,She's suppose to be comeing so i really hope i hook up with her,lol
This world is getting really messed up especially over here in saudi,All these's suicide booms and all.We just had one here like 15 minutes away from the dq (Diplomatic Quarter's)Thats were all the but a couple of the embassy's are.And where i live,Did i ever tell u my parents work at the us embassy.lol.oppps.well peppz i got to bounce take care have a nice day
Nadir Ali
(Macdaddy4life)

Date:	2002-09-16 16:58
Subject:	Skool
Security:	Public
Mood:	peaceful

hello people
sorry i haven't written in a while, i've been to busy wasteing my time doing nothin.This country is serously a waste of time.I've recently started skool.It's really gay.I have the craziest teacher's,My english teacher who is from tennesse is the worest.Everytime we read a story in class she tells us the hole story with out us reading it's so annoying.I have this really stupid math teacher.Well she's ok this year, but i still don't really like her, she buggs me to much we don't get along well.We call her the 7 chins lady.Because her neck is so big and it's like cut off in section so they are ontop of one another, u have to see it to know what im talking about.My history teach is from south africa.He's a really good teach but his test are hard like anything.He's to tough on us.I don't have a science teach yet she hasn't came.She's from australia i think.Oh yeah i forgot to tell u that my skool is an australian skool.So every1 in my skool is basically europen or arab.A couple canadians and americans.
After all that all i have to say is I wish I was home.Bye America!!
Nadir Ali
aka (Macdaddyb4life)

Date:	2002-08-29 15:07
Subject:	Learner's permitt
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Fabolous p.diddy feat,Jagged Edge Trade it off part 2

I got my learner's permitt today final, i've wait like 2 weeks and a day to get it, i failed the last time, it's so hard those signs and u can never read what it say.So i got that wish is cool.The lady next to me messed up like on the 1st question and went crazy it was funny.I felt kind of bad for her though wait no i didn't it was to funny to feel sorry for her.Lol.I'm so mean i know. well that's all i've really done today.I'm going bak out to mall so hopefully i'll get some more cool things peace every1.

Lovinb4thuggin
Nadir

Date:	2002-08-28 23:46
Subject:	my summer vaction
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy
Music:	Welcome to New York

Hey people i've recentle been back home the states for almost 2 months.We are comeing from Saudia Arab aka Hell.lol.I've enjoyed my vaction i got to see family.And some friends that i've concedred family actually, people like my friend Dale.I've know him since 2nd grade, He's the greatest he's always been there,We've been through alot of stuff good and bad, Mostly good.

I've got to hang out with my cousin Mohamed he's been bugging me the hole time about have sex.Lol.His very quote is " Hit and Run". He's a very sad person i know. But i love him because he's family.He's taken me place's that i shouldn't have gone like D.C. at 10 at night. we wnt to a place were the hore's come out and make there money.I saw aleast 20 each night.According to my cousin u can get some for like 50 dollar's or something.He should me where all the major club's are,Where you can get a private dance for practically nothing but you can't touch them. And all the drug dealer's.They are the crazyest looking people i've ever seen really.Rich but crazy.

Ok i think that's enough talking about hoe's and dealers.lol

I've had the best summer i really needed it well except the d.c. part that was just crazy and scary.But i did get free stuff from a gas station because my cousin know's one of the dude's that works there.He pretty much know's every1 that works in a gas station so i got the hock up.well im out pepps

Lovinb4thuggin

Nadir